The Proposal

I really didn't see it coming. Honest. I should have when my roommate asked me what kind of flowers would be pretty for our apartment but then the flowers never showed up. But I didn't even think he had the ring yet. I thought I'd still have to wait at least another month.

I woke up at 7:30 knowing it was going to be a full day. Tyler and I had planned a temple trip that morning, after which I would promptly get on the Frontrunner to go to South Jordan for my cousin's baby shower. He made my mom promise to get me back in time, cause he had a plan and a ring burning a hole in his pocket.

I got back to Provo around 3 and we were discussing where we wanted to eat for our date that night. Poor Tyler, wanting to do something special, suggested Communal, but I insisted that we go somewhere less expensive. Not wanting to push the matter and tip me off to the surprise, he obliged. We instead went to Tommy's Burgers, a teeny, run-down little burger joint near downtown Provo. Afterwards, he said he heard about this pretty walk around some park and he really wanted to go. This also should have tipped me off, because rarely is Tyler inflexible when it comes to evening plans, and he seemed relatively set on this idea.

We began walking through the park, past a couple of people doing campfires. We crossed a bridge, and I noticed that there were little strips of tulle and roses woven into the fence.

Tyler said "hm, looks like a party" and I said "looks like someone's getting engaged." I didn't think it was going to be me, but my heart was starting to pound a little. Then I caught a glimpse of some lights through the trees. At this point I was pretty confident about what was about to happen. Tyler led me to a path that headed into the woods, and at our feet there was a jar of flowers. He picked it up and handed it to me, and we continued down the path, which led to a little table next to a creek set with a white table cloth, another jar of flowers, candles, plates and champagne glasses, and a boxed cake.

There were candles in small mason jars strung around the dining area to look like little lanterns. And my coat was there waiting for me, in case it was cold (it was a little. Thanks for thinking of me, babe). He poured sparkling cider and cut us some cake. We ate and fed each other bites of cake and joked about what if my coat caught on fire when I reached across the table over the candle. I laughed nervously a lot. We stared at each other a lot. I watched his every move to see when he was going to reach to the ground or into the cake box or into his pocket and pull out a little box. Finally, he spoke. He told me how he doesn't want to miss a day seeing me, being with me, or laughing with me. That he couldn't live without me and that there's no one else he would rather spend his life with. He then stood and came around the table and got down on one knee (still taller than me when I'm sitting) and asked me to marry him. And I said yes, because I thought he gave a pretty convincing argument.

Then, my dear friends emerged from the darkness. Merrilyn, Hilary, Julianne, Keira, and sweet Caroline came into view and squealed with me about how I'm engaged! Tyler's beautiful cousin, Chelsea, came out with a camera and started snapping pictures with a blinding flash (not sure how respectable I look in any of those but so grateful for the documentation of that special moment nonetheless). (P.S. these are not those pictures. I am still waiting for them. These are crappy iPhone pictures.)


Wasn't sure what to do here. Do I hug my fiancé (!!!!!) or do I show off my ring? In the end, I did neither of those things and stood there awkwardly. 

I about lost it. It meant so much to me to have loved ones there and to see how much everyone came together to make this happen. I felt so much love and support and I couldn't have asked for it to be more magical. I feel so blessed to enjoy so much kindness in my life and I have received the ultimate blessing in the form of this man who wants so much to make me happy and worked so hard to create an experience that would be special for me (even though I made it as complicated as possible through his entire planning process).



I had coincidentally painted my nails the night before. That was a stroke of luck, cause that only happens about once every two weeks.

I hate to be gushy, but this is my blog and if ever I have license to be gushy, now is the time.

I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I found the most wonderful man, and he adores me more than I could ever hope to deserve. He is so sweet, so giving, so selfless. He is my calm in this storm of a life. He is my private beach, my getaway, my vacation when I need a break. He is my safe harbor, my anchor, my common sense. Before him, I never knew that someone else could make me feel beautiful; I always thought I would spend my whole life trying to convince myself of that. In the gentlest of ways he tells me no when I need to hear it, even though all he ever wants to do is tell me yes. He gives me direction and, at the same time, freedom to be myself. Watching him smile is better than watching the most beautiful sunset, and we could giggle like 8th graders at the stupidest things for hours. I love him in such a sweet and simple way, and it's the most wonderful thing in the world.

I don't mean to brag (although he totally deserves to be bragged about). I mean to set a standard.

I believe every girl deserves to feel this way. I believe everyone can feel this way. I believe that, no matter what mistakes a person may have made in their past, no matter how smart or funny or attractive or accomplished you are, every girl deserves to be made to feel like the luckiest, happiest girl in the world, and every boy deserves to find someone who brings out his tenderness and inspires him to fight for her. I believe that men and women can make each other happier than we could ever be by ourselves. I believe in not settling; holding out until you get exactly what you want. I don't mean perfection, but I mean someone who has worked as hard as you have to be the best person they can be, and finding someone whose personality complements yours, who will make commitments and stick to them.

My senior year of high school, my English teacher told our class that who you marry should be the most selfish decision you ever make. That's one of the few things I took with me from high school, and ever since I have been so picky. Probably much pickier than I really had a right to be. And it was frustrating and I was afraid sometimes that I would be alone for a while as a result. I am grateful that I did not have to wait long, not nearly as long as many people do. But I am also grateful for the time that I did wait. It gave me a chance before trying to give myself to someone else to become so much more than I used to be, to learn what I liked, what I'm good at, and what I need to work on. I am ecstatic to be in love, but I learned to be happy single as well. Happiness is for everybody.

I don't believe there is ONE right person for everyone. I think each person has probably hundreds of people in the world that could complement them and make them happy. I don't think that Tyler is the only person it could have worked out with. He is not "The One." But he is the one I choose. I could not be more satisfied with that choice, and I will stand by it forever, no matter what trials we face or what stresses we endure. I accept his happiness as my personal responsibility, and I feel so thankful and humbled that my Heavenly Father has entrusted me with that. I am full to the brim with gratitude that he chose me too.

I love you, Tyler. Thank you for loving me.

I can't wait to be Mrs. Dalton!